Changed my blog to..

vamp-fiona@blogspot.com

Deactived soon

I guess i gonna deactivate this blog and make a new blog. Will update you guys the new one soon.
Tchio.

Happy Birthday (someone)

It's (someone)'s birthday. Tons of greetings or even gifts were presented to (someone). Texting, greeting, presenting gift to a birthday boy or girl is a norm. But what is't when you hesitate and think for the whole day whether or not to greet that (someone)? That whole day was a gloomy day. Rain pouring every second.

Recalled back of the past. Best friend used to be and then we go on with it. But things are really so different right now where we are stuck. No where for us to go. Watching each other from the back. What is the feeling now? Hard to say.

Anyway, to (someone) i would like to greet you..

Happy Birthday..

What should i do...

What should i do now? 
What   Should  I  Do.......................

FULL-STOP on it

I don't hate you, but i am just upset and disappointed with you.
You make me feel so upset that i don't want to see you anymore.
I'm not sure whether i will turn around again or not but, i guess there's no.
Cause whether i am here or not it makes no different for you.
This story will not have a good ending after all.






Reason for turning away?




I guess, i am the only one that know about it.








*Untold story with a FULL-STOP.

Kelabu Menjadi Penglihatan Kini

Kelabu menjadi penglihatan kini,

Keindahan tak ke mana sudah kini,

Kamar sepi diduduki,

Kenangkan dulu tuk kembali,

Kelabu menjadi penglihatan kini,

Keinginan yang ada tidak dikecapi,

Ketidak tentu halaan menjadi teman disisi,

Kemana mahu tidak diketahui,

Kelabu menjadi penglihatan kini,

Pudarnya warna si pelangi,

Dulu hidup di bawah si pelangi,

Kini hidup di bawah si kesali,

Kalau begitu sudah diakhiri,

Yang dulu itu dilupakan saja,

Kerna pelangi tak wujud lagi,

Kelabu menjadi penglihatan kini.

* kelabu itu warna penglihatan ku kini....  =(

smile

                             i am here to tell you / you guys that...

                                                                        too upset and stress makes me...



















                                FORGET HOW TO SMILE




*ain't happy

Past Tense

Most of the time when we came across something that shows how stupid or nerdy we are in the past, we tend to ask people to.. "DELETE IT,DELETE IT!

I won't deny that i am one of them. Afraid to face the truth knowing of how stupid i am with all the embarrassing act makes me feel like digging a hole and hide in it forever! Thousand of thoughts came after me right after recalling what i've done in the past. What will people think of me and what will happen to my future? *being too dramatic.. sorry*


But look at the bright side, what's wrong? Why are we so scare of what we've done in the past? "PAST TENSE" of us happens with reason. This is what i've found out.
Our past may also serves as a source of laughter to us.
Compare ourselves now with the past and it helps you to know how much you've improved and how good you are now.


So, why still afraid of the past?
Be bold and go through it.
Step Forward people!

Hope of Glory Centre 16th Anniversary

Woke up early in the morning and get myself prepared to attend church. Reached about 8:55 am. Sitted alone in the third floor waiting for the rest of the dancers to reach. While waiting i tried to get myself cool down a bit as i felt the heat due to the thick jacket i am wearing. Finally, everyone was there. Helping the younger one to get done with their make up was the first thing to do. Then all of us head to the last practice before the worship start at the second sanctuary. Waited a while for the worship to start...

When the worship was about to start, we have to get ready at the back to run to the front. ONE WAY, JESUS! Yeah! Jump so much that i actually have muscle pain at my tight now,haha. But it doesn't matter because it is for Him i dance. Glory Glory to the King of King!

What touched me the most was when Bro. Calvin shared his words with everyone there. He will be leaving Malaysia to Australia for his pastry studies. As he shared, i drop my tears. It was true that Ps. Khor said, we take each other for granted. We won't realise how important the person is until the day that person leave us. Bro. Calvin was my former lifegroup leader. KOPITIAM lifegroup. It can be said that KTLG mould me and help me to grew a lots. In trouble times, i seek for help and Bro. Calvin will encourage me with God's words. Now, i am waiting for 27th March, Bro. Calvin's farewell. I need to thank him and i wish to let him know how much i love him and how good he has been treating his lifegroup member. ( T.T )

When it comes to the moment where the floor is open for the new comers to accept the Christ. Everyone prayed so hard that they will be someone to get saved. Praise the Lord they were quite a number of them!

When everything end, i went back home without having my lunch at church because i have to settle with my housework. Parents went to Cameron Highland that's why i have to do all the house work >





Feel full of joy and rejuvenate ...

HAPPY 16TH ANNIVERSARY HGC!!

Hand in Hand

=(

Snapping photos aren't just about the word nice but its about the skills, the feel and the lightning.. Which i don't have any.. at all...
=(

SON vs daugther

SON vs daughter = SON O.K, daughter K.O



Setiap keluarga mempunyai masalahnya yang tersendiri. Yang pastinya masalah tidak akan lenyap begitu sahaja.




Soalnya, mengapa kaum cina begitu mementingkan zuriat lelaki? Mengapa segala-gala keutamaan diberi kepada lelaki? Jikalau begitu, kenapa tidak hapuskan saja perempuan yang ada? Ataupun kaum wanita ini hanyalah satu "alat" yang dipergunakan untuk menyambung zuriat sahaja?

Sedar sikit, tanpa wanita dimana kamu, LELAKI?!



Lelaki boleh bekerja, wanita juga boleh.
Lelaki boleh masak, wanita juga boleh masak.
Yang perit ditanggung oleh wanita,
Yang gembira dirasai lelaki.


Mengapa abaikan hak kaum wanita?





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The Crown of Beauty

THE CROWN of BEAUTY? In other words, it's our hair. They play a very important role for our physical appearance. That's why it is known as the crown of beauty.

I really love my long hair a lots that i dare not to cut even a bit of it. They are the precious one for me. Since i was a child i had only cut my hair short for twice only. Then it's long till few days before.

Something makes me grab hold of the bravery to make this decision of cutting my hair short. Yes, i admit that it was too long so i have to cut it but, there's something more than that.

Was trying to take away my own crown of beauty....

NOW..

Look Horrible........with this short hair.....

The Weird Way of Sleeping

CONSTRUCTION UNDERGOING... SORRY ~

ABC and 123

(Left)ABC and 123 (Right)

(in the picture) ABC

ABC= Fat and Lazy

123 = Naughty and Hyperactive

Bought 2 little Roborovski and named them ABC and 123.

Took such a long time to check their gender and finally their gender is identified.

ABC = Female

123 = Male

I had a hard time to catch hold of them and they are super active. Kept running on the wheel eventhough it's midnight. Both of their sleeping position are so different. ABC will just lay down like a lazy pig but 123 will face right up the sky.

Things are different these few days, this morning when i checked on them, i realised ABC was injured. Right at the face. It is not that active anymore. And i knew it was 123 that caused these. I saw 123 fighting with ABC and i tried to separate them for a few hours just now. Then i placed them backed together into them same cage. I've even made them cardboard houses but it seems like they enjoy sleeping together in the same house. Fight at first and now sleeping together in the same place?! What do you want?!

(Hahaha) They make me confused all the time. Don't really know what they want and i am really scare if they fight again tomorrow.

BEGGING you 2, PLEASE DON'T FIGHT... if not i will fried you with the frying pan!

Hahaha, But it's pretty funny that when i scold them, they seems to know and undertand that i am angry. After scolding them, they will hide themselves under the woodshaves.

Well, time to check them oOOoUuuTT .....

* e N d *

Dot..............

Dot.......................................................................................................................

asking myself to shaddap...............................

I don't know whether the decision i made was a right one or a wrong one. But i am sure that what i made really hurts a lot of people. Especially to him. I am so scare that what i've made will be the decision that will make me feel regret for the whole of my life. I am 19, long way of journey is still waiting for me. But, it's not as easy as what it has been thought. Won't deny that when people say i am still young and still got much more of thing waiting for me, the words are true. But still stuff are different for me. I don't really know how to explain but i really feel so scare. Can't deny that i really miss him but still, i am not sure whethere it's because of too used of having him before this or it's about the feelings i have for him.




















Dare not to love
Dare not to open my heart anymore
All the lad please come no near me..

The PRODUCER was in tense condition... He won't cool down no matter what...
The monotone guy is trying to practice with his script. Good job by the way. Finally you manage to do it in a not so monotone way. ..(LOL)

Our group WRAP UP pattern... special leh.... hehehehe...

I'm so sorry... i don't know why all of sudden i feel like sitting like that...

Now.. i have to pay attention to Chris... listen to the orders...."Yes sir, Yes BaBi"

ADUI why can't this BABI stop sweating and cool himself down la...

The In FM crew!! for more information pls login to www.in.fm (LOL)

VOiLa!! The Johnny's food really look very THai-ish~

My food la..

I don't know why i feel like being a bit boyish recently. What had happen to me?

Chinese New Year Live show = on Christmas Eve ??!!!

On this year Christmas i have to keep listening to the chinese new year songs just to keep the chinese new year mood for the radio live show. Though there were a few techincal problem occur but we had did our best and the cooperation was amazing. Chris.. thanks for everything...we knew that you work very hard for this and it can be seen from your dark circles.. LOL... just kidding.. anyway really thank you a lots... To Anthony Bella Bella... Yea yea oh oh tata oh.. i know i am not spontanous enough.. fine! you will do everything! (LOL) Don't worry it's just a joke.. i am sorry that i can't control my hand these few day hehehe..Anyway .. no doubt that you are a talented announcer! Good Job...

Khing Mun i am sorry i hitted you .. er.. welll.. you know hahahaha...

Well.. today was a wonderful day and happy is a no doubt. Really love you guys a lots!!

Wonderful day i have....

I had a wonderful day yesterday. Well i won't deny that it was really tiring and my neck was so pain and my leg was so shaky after the shooting. Well, after the recoding at "Gary's" house i went and meet CK for his shooting. We stop at Ee Von's house and start the day with a simple make up. After that we head to the swimming pool there to have our "picnic" scene. Me, Nantana and another chinese girl i forgot her name (opss ..so sorry....). We have to eat non stop and what's worst was we need to pretend to laugh. Well, to be more precise.. i need to pretend laughing like an insane chinese lady,HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!


It took about.. 2 to 3 hours to shoot that scene. WOW~ butt pain cause i am wearing a short skirt so i have to fold my leg properly when i sit, or else.. it will be my "porn movie". Alright, when we are done with that, the Adv. students take turn to snap photos with us. Well Well Well... and now finally that "Fat Gay Director" (LOL) confess the truth after so long! He said that he remember me for some shit! "If it is raining.. Fiona will be the last one to know it is raining"!!! It was so stupid as the TT MC finalist and programme designer used to call me with that! (URGH!!!)
Ok.. Fat Gay.. laugh till you feel like stopping ... i don't mind..!! (BLEK~)




Well it was pretty late after that so we went to Genting Klang for dinner. Honestly, i feel uneasy for the seniors to treat me and Nantana dinner.Yea.. i had "PORN RICE" (LOL). It was suppose to be prawn rice and not porn rice. It was all because of that Fat Gay. He named my rice like that.Well.. I really feel super uneasy because they are treating us as if we are the boss oand they are the worker for us. I will feel myself being rude for that. I tried to take my purse out to pay for my own dinner but Fat Gay stop me. ( SIGH .. haizzz.. ) When we finished our dinner we head to Ashlee's house for the next shoot.






Pity Nantana. i bet she have phobia towards muruku now ( HAAHAHAHAHAHA)...
Her scene was to eat muruku in front of the television and to stand during the countdown. Imagine that she need to eat that not so tasty muruku for so many times. What's worst was that she was feeling so full because we just had our dinner!!





OK~ Finally it's my turn...........
I have to wet my super long hair at first and put lots of shampoo onto it so that bubbles are seen. My neck was really pain because i have to bend my neck and body to show that i am washing my hair. It was funny that because of my too long hair i have to shoot a few more times as before that i didn't split my hair away when i need to stand and face the camera. (ended up looking like ... er....... hantu berambut panjang hahahahah)
When everything was done~ my leg was really shaking as if it was having an earthquake. Thank God no one notice about it. i don't want to make them worry.





Finally the shooting was done. I hope what i did can help them in their assignments. Feel so glad that i can get to know them. Especially that Fat Gay hahaha... The Banana and being "racist" for the own race. Finally i found someone in the college that have the same thinking just like me. I thought i am a weirdo at first for being like that. But now.. i know that i am not.. hahahaha...









































































































(To Be Continue when i get those photos..... hahahaha...)