Watching you from far....

Moved my mouse to the link.. and clicked it..

The word surprise came into my mind as i didn't expect you to dedicate the post to me..

I will not misunderstanding and i understand what you are trying to say...but there are times.. i wish that you could tell things straight forwardly..

Do not make it to beat about the bush.. as there are times i do judge or will get it wrongly..

I don't want to hurt you.. i don't want to make you angry too...

I wish to see you smile... Wish to hear you laugh...

Wish you to be like how you used to be...

I know.. that i can't do anything anymore.. it's too late..

But there are things i really wanted to talk with you and share every single experienced that i went through to you..

But... hesitation came to me..





Will you listen? Will you care about it? Or will you just ask me to zip my mouth and hold it with both of my hands and walk away"?



Tried to get my eye away from the phone... but.. it didn't really work, i suppose..



There are times i wish that there are no hesitation passing by me.. or even you..

But that couldn't be true..



Saw you in my mind.. walking and standing far away..

I'm just right behind you.. stretching my little fingers ..

But it can't be reached.. i keep it back..

It's another hesitation.. HAIZ~

What will you do if you were me?

What will you do if you are right behind me?

Will i get a call from you..?

Or i will get no sign of you, at all?



I wanted to tell you that i really missed you too..

Truly a lots...

Wishing that i could hear you... speak to me..

Whisper to me..

Right beside me...



Not getting it wrong...

感情...

我是一个普通的人，如他人。有时候，我提出错误的举动，有次我使成功的标志，会亮起。
特别是感情...

问我，我做什么的？问我，我会如何生存？问我是否知道我是哪里的？
我只能告诉你..我不知道..

在我的情绪控制每个部分，我的身心。这使我很难生存。但我猜它是礼物..这并不是说很难与它生存下来，但我如何控制它我事。很明显，我没有一个非常糟糕的工作。
只能责怪自己的愚蠢，我可以说。但我肯定有一个理由和目的，为什么上帝给我这个礼物。我有一个在这个世界的目的了。该船1上帝也。

不同的人可能会感到或看到我的个性我的不同。
有些人可能认为这...我是一个非常害羞，被动和胆小的人。 一些人认为我的一种善良，有爱心，真诚和关怀的人或一个人是非常雄心勃勃的人才。 有些人甚至认为这是一个非常粗鲁，独裁者我，有人说的并不友好。
但只有我自己知道我是谁真的很快乐。没有人知道自己比我当然。我乞求对地球上的，请停止来看我！ * （丢弃眼泪）
我不在乎是否要称赞我不是因为我不喜欢得到赞美，但是，当涉及到误会....它伤害了我比什么都..疼痛，这让我像一个在我的心头，直接用刀刺伤的感觉。

但我知道，无论什么，这是我自己的过错。对于大家对我的判断记笔记。这是我自己的愚蠢，我自己的过错..
事情不会是这样的，否则我不会感到连一个伤害，如果我忽略人们说，和法官。事情不会是这样的，如果我能控制自己的感受。

给我一点时间，我会凤凰一样的上升从灰烬！给我一些时间来改善。给我一些时间，是一个更好的。只要多一点，而..我不知道需要多长时间，但..斯特给我一些时间。

“唷〜”

HopefuLLy...

Woke up early in the morning, thought back of what you and i had talk about..

I've never thought that sunrise is so beautiful until you.. say it out..

wish that every morning when i wake up, the first scene that i want to have is this.. the beautiful and calming sunrise right outside of my window..

Was alone.. sitting.. thinking..
when will you appear..
i actually have a hope within me since these few days..
i really wish that i could read your mind..
i really wish that i could watch what are you doing,
i really wish that you can tell me what is in your mind,
Wishes are everywhere..
you and i,
she and he,
they and us..
all are hoping.. for something.. a little thing, a lot of thing..
when will it be fulfill?
But.. will the hopes of these people bring them happiness..
or disaster?
Will my hope bring happiness or....
I wish to know about it and..
i am now waiting for the right time..







i will be waiting..
i am still waiting for you..
you know who you are..
standing right in front of the door.. ready to give you the warmest hug..
but still... i wish that you would tell me...
what's in your mind..

Well, enough for all the emo emo feelings.. i had my last paper yesterday and it was awesome!

1st. the question was hard enough

2nd. people kept booking resit paper for me (cursing me to fail!! XD!!)

3rd. the hall was terribly cold but my body was terribly hot ( it happens to me since the start of the 1st paper )

4th. the guy behind me is very noisy XD!! ( hehe.. i was laughing all the while when he make noise )

Well.. that's the end of my first semester. It happened so fast that i really feel so glad about it. But at the same time i was actually scare that the coming semester will be tougher and i don't wish that i did my exam badly. I wish that i could handle it all.

I would thank this particular person..*****

Thanks for the care about how i feel and thanks for the encourage you had given me last night.

All these while i wanted to brought the matter up to you but it seems like you are so busy hanging around so i dare not to disturb and thought of let it be.. but what you told me last night i would keep it in my mind and.. i wish to tell you that.. once the bible had said.. if there's a man that slap you on the left, you let him slap you on the right too... that's why.. i won't mind letting anyone to slap me on my right if they had slapped me on my left ^^

Holiday starts and... Its the time for me to............ DREAM about EDWARD!!!! LOL ^^