oF my LiFe...

Changed my blog to..

2010-08-16T22:59:00.000+08:00

Deactived soon

2010-07-27T20:02:00.000+08:00

I guess i gonna deactivate this blog and make a new blog. Will update you guys the new one soon.
Tchio.

Happy Birthday (someone)

2010-07-26T12:40:00.000+08:00

It's (someone)'s birthday. Tons of greetings or even gifts were presented to (someone). Texting, greeting, presenting gift to a birthday boy or girl is a norm. But what is't when you hesitate and think for the whole day whether or not to greet that (someone)? That whole day was a gloomy day. Rain pouring every second.

Recalled back of the past. Best friend used to be and then we go on with it. But things are really so different right now where we are stuck. No where for us to go. Watching each other from the back. What is the feeling now? Hard to say.

Anyway, to (someone) i would like to greet you..

Happy Birthday..

What should i do...

2010-06-18T22:03:00.002+08:00

What should i do now?
What Should I Do.......................

FULL-STOP on it

2010-06-17T22:32:00.000+08:00

I don't hate you, but i am just upset and disappointed with you.
You make me feel so upset that i don't want to see you anymore.
I'm not sure whether i will turn around again or not but, i guess there's no.
Cause whether i am here or not it makes no different for you.
This story will not have a good ending after all.

Reason for turning away?

I guess, i am the only one that know about it.

*Untold story with a FULL-STOP.

Kelabu Menjadi Penglihatan Kini

2010-06-08T20:07:00.000+08:00

Kelabu menjadi penglihatan kini,

Keindahan tak ke mana sudah kini,

Kamar sepi diduduki,

Kenangkan dulu tuk kembali,

Kelabu menjadi penglihatan kini,

Keinginan yang ada tidak dikecapi,

Ketidak tentu halaan menjadi teman disisi,

Kemana mahu tidak diketahui,

Kelabu menjadi penglihatan kini,

Pudarnya warna si pelangi,

Dulu hidup di bawah si pelangi,

Kini hidup di bawah si kesali,

Kalau begitu sudah diakhiri,

Yang dulu itu dilupakan saja,

Kerna pelangi tak wujud lagi,

Kelabu menjadi penglihatan kini.

* kelabu itu warna penglihatan ku kini.... =(

smile

2010-06-07T21:12:00.000+08:00

i am here to tell you / you guys that...

too upset and stress makes me...

FORGET HOW TO SMILE

*ain't happy

Past Tense

2010-04-17T12:40:00.000+08:00

Most of the time when we came across something that shows how stupid or nerdy we are in the past, we tend to ask people to.. "DELETE IT,DELETE IT!

I won't deny that i am one of them. Afraid to face the truth knowing of how stupid i am with all the embarrassing act makes me feel like digging a hole and hide in it forever! Thousand of thoughts came after me right after recalling what i've done in the past. What will people think of me and what will happen to my future? *being too dramatic.. sorry*

But look at the bright side, what's wrong? Why are we so scare of what we've done in the past? "PAST TENSE" of us happens with reason. This is what i've found out.
Our past may also serves as a source of laughter to us.
Compare ourselves now with the past and it helps you to know how much you've improved and how good you are now.

So, why still afraid of the past?
Be bold and go through it.
Step Forward people!

Hope of Glory Centre 16th Anniversary

2010-03-14T15:03:00.002+08:00

Woke up early in the morning and get myself prepared to attend church. Reached about 8:55 am. Sitted alone in the third floor waiting for the rest of the dancers to reach. While waiting i tried to get myself cool down a bit as i felt the heat due to the thick jacket i am wearing. Finally, everyone was there. Helping the younger one to get done with their make up was the first thing to do. Then all of us head to the last practice before the worship start at the second sanctuary. Waited a while for the worship to start...

When the worship was about to start, we have to get ready at the back to run to the front. ONE WAY, JESUS! Yeah! Jump so much that i actually have muscle pain at my tight now,haha. But it doesn't matter because it is for Him i dance. Glory Glory to the King of King!

What touched me the most was when Bro. Calvin shared his words with everyone there. He will be leaving Malaysia to Australia for his pastry studies. As he shared, i drop my tears. It was true that Ps. Khor said, we take each other for granted. We won't realise how important the person is until the day that person leave us. Bro. Calvin was my former lifegroup leader. KOPITIAM lifegroup. It can be said that KTLG mould me and help me to grew a lots. In trouble times, i seek for help and Bro. Calvin will encourage me with God's words. Now, i am waiting for 27th March, Bro. Calvin's farewell. I need to thank him and i wish to let him know how much i love him and how good he has been treating his lifegroup member. ( T.T )

When it comes to the moment where the floor is open for the new comers to accept the Christ. Everyone prayed so hard that they will be someone to get saved. Praise the Lord they were quite a number of them!

When everything end, i went back home without having my lunch at church because i have to settle with my housework. Parents went to Cameron Highland that's why i have to do all the house work >

Feel full of joy and rejuvenate ...

HAPPY 16TH ANNIVERSARY HGC!!

Hand in Hand

2010-03-08T22:37:00.002+08:00

=(

2010-03-07T20:31:00.002+08:00

Snapping photos aren't just about the word nice but its about the skills, the feel and the lightning.. Which i don't have any.. at all...
=(

SON vs daugther

2010-03-02T19:58:00.002+08:00

SON vs daughter = SON O.K, daughter K.O

Setiap keluarga mempunyai masalahnya yang tersendiri. Yang pastinya masalah tidak akan lenyap begitu sahaja.

Soalnya, mengapa kaum cina begitu mementingkan zuriat lelaki? Mengapa segala-gala keutamaan diberi kepada lelaki? Jikalau begitu, kenapa tidak hapuskan saja perempuan yang ada? Ataupun kaum wanita ini hanyalah satu "alat" yang dipergunakan untuk menyambung zuriat sahaja?

Sedar sikit, tanpa wanita dimana kamu, LELAKI?!

Lelaki boleh bekerja, wanita juga boleh.
Lelaki boleh masak, wanita juga boleh masak.
Yang perit ditanggung oleh wanita,
Yang gembira dirasai lelaki.

Mengapa abaikan hak kaum wanita?

#$$#%^%^$%&$%*$%&@$%@#%#@$#^%^&%*^&(*&)*U$#$$%$%#$#$!@#@!@!#@!!!!!!!!!

The Crown of Beauty

2010-03-01T21:35:00.002+08:00

THE CROWN of BEAUTY? In other words, it's our hair. They play a very important role for our physical appearance. That's why it is known as the crown of beauty.

I really love my long hair a lots that i dare not to cut even a bit of it. They are the precious one for me. Since i was a child i had only cut my hair short for twice only. Then it's long till few days before.

Something makes me grab hold of the bravery to make this decision of cutting my hair short. Yes, i admit that it was too long so i have to cut it but, there's something more than that.

Was trying to take away my own crown of beauty....

NOW..

Look Horrible........with this short hair.....

The Weird Way of Sleeping

2010-02-21T17:54:00.000+08:00

2010-02-14T23:50:00.001+08:00

CONSTRUCTION UNDERGOING... SORRY ~

ABC and 123

2010-01-17T20:37:00.002+08:00

(Left)ABC and 123 (Right)

(in the picture) ABC

ABC= Fat and Lazy

123 = Naughty and Hyperactive

Bought 2 little Roborovski and named them ABC and 123.

Took such a long time to check their gender and finally their gender is identified.

ABC = Female

123 = Male

I had a hard time to catch hold of them and they are super active. Kept running on the wheel eventhough it's midnight. Both of their sleeping position are so different. ABC will just lay down like a lazy pig but 123 will face right up the sky.

Things are different these few days, this morning when i checked on them, i realised ABC was injured. Right at the face. It is not that active anymore. And i knew it was 123 that caused these. I saw 123 fighting with ABC and i tried to separate them for a few hours just now. Then i placed them backed together into them same cage. I've even made them cardboard houses but it seems like they enjoy sleeping together in the same house. Fight at first and now sleeping together in the same place?! What do you want?!

(Hahaha) They make me confused all the time. Don't really know what they want and i am really scare if they fight again tomorrow.

BEGGING you 2, PLEASE DON'T FIGHT... if not i will fried you with the frying pan!

Hahaha, But it's pretty funny that when i scold them, they seems to know and undertand that i am angry. After scolding them, they will hide themselves under the woodshaves.

Well, time to check them oOOoUuuTT .....

* e N d *

Dot..............

2010-01-11T22:48:00.002+08:00

Dot.......................................................................................................................

asking myself to shaddap...............................

2010-01-10T23:22:00.003+08:00

I don't know whether the decision i made was a right one or a wrong one. But i am sure that what i made really hurts a lot of people. Especially to him. I am so scare that what i've made will be the decision that will make me feel regret for the whole of my life. I am 19, long way of journey is still waiting for me. But, it's not as easy as what it has been thought. Won't deny that when people say i am still young and still got much more of thing waiting for me, the words are true. But still stuff are different for me. I don't really know how to explain but i really feel so scare. Can't deny that i really miss him but still, i am not sure whethere it's because of too used of having him before this or it's about the feelings i have for him.

Dare not to love
Dare not to open my heart anymore
All the lad please come no near me..

2009-12-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

The PRODUCER was in tense condition... He won't cool down no matter what...
The monotone guy is trying to practice with his script. Good job by the way. Finally you manage to do it in a not so monotone way. ..(LOL)

Our group WRAP UP pattern... special leh.... hehehehe...

I'm so sorry... i don't know why all of sudden i feel like sitting like that...

Now.. i have to pay attention to Chris... listen to the orders...."Yes sir, Yes BaBi"

ADUI why can't this BABI stop sweating and cool himself down la...

The In FM crew!! for more information pls login to www.in.fm (LOL)

VOiLa!! The Johnny's food really look very THai-ish~

My food la..

I don't know why i feel like being a bit boyish recently. What had happen to me?

Chinese New Year Live show = on Christmas Eve ??!!!

On this year Christmas i have to keep listening to the chinese new year songs just to keep the chinese new year mood for the radio live show. Though there were a few techincal problem occur but we had did our best and the cooperation was amazing. Chris.. thanks for everything...we knew that you work very hard for this and it can be seen from your dark circles.. LOL... just kidding.. anyway really thank you a lots... To Anthony Bella Bella... Yea yea oh oh tata oh.. i know i am not spontanous enough.. fine! you will do everything! (LOL) Don't worry it's just a joke.. i am sorry that i can't control my hand these few day hehehe..Anyway .. no doubt that you are a talented announcer! Good Job...

Khing Mun i am sorry i hitted you .. er.. welll.. you know hahahaha...

Well.. today was a wonderful day and happy is a no doubt. Really love you guys a lots!!

Wonderful day i have....

2009-12-18T08:27:00.000+08:00

I had a wonderful day yesterday. Well i won't deny that it was really tiring and my neck was so pain and my leg was so shaky after the shooting. Well, after the recoding at "Gary's" house i went and meet CK for his shooting. We stop at Ee Von's house and start the day with a simple make up. After that we head to the swimming pool there to have our "picnic" scene. Me, Nantana and another chinese girl i forgot her name (opss ..so sorry....). We have to eat non stop and what's worst was we need to pretend to laugh. Well, to be more precise.. i need to pretend laughing like an insane chinese lady,HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!

It took about.. 2 to 3 hours to shoot that scene. WOW~ butt pain cause i am wearing a short skirt so i have to fold my leg properly when i sit, or else.. it will be my "porn movie". Alright, when we are done with that, the Adv. students take turn to snap photos with us. Well Well Well... and now finally that "Fat Gay Director" (LOL) confess the truth after so long! He said that he remember me for some shit! "If it is raining.. Fiona will be the last one to know it is raining"!!! It was so stupid as the TT MC finalist and programme designer used to call me with that! (URGH!!!)
Ok.. Fat Gay.. laugh till you feel like stopping ... i don't mind..!! (BLEK~)

Well it was pretty late after that so we went to Genting Klang for dinner. Honestly, i feel uneasy for the seniors to treat me and Nantana dinner.Yea.. i had "PORN RICE" (LOL). It was suppose to be prawn rice and not porn rice. It was all because of that Fat Gay. He named my rice like that.Well.. I really feel super uneasy because they are treating us as if we are the boss oand they are the worker for us. I will feel myself being rude for that. I tried to take my purse out to pay for my own dinner but Fat Gay stop me. ( SIGH .. haizzz.. ) When we finished our dinner we head to Ashlee's house for the next shoot.

Pity Nantana. i bet she have phobia towards muruku now ( HAAHAHAHAHAHA)...
Her scene was to eat muruku in front of the television and to stand during the countdown. Imagine that she need to eat that not so tasty muruku for so many times. What's worst was that she was feeling so full because we just had our dinner!!

OK~ Finally it's my turn...........
I have to wet my super long hair at first and put lots of shampoo onto it so that bubbles are seen. My neck was really pain because i have to bend my neck and body to show that i am washing my hair. It was funny that because of my too long hair i have to shoot a few more times as before that i didn't split my hair away when i need to stand and face the camera. (ended up looking like ... er....... hantu berambut panjang hahahahah)
When everything was done~ my leg was really shaking as if it was having an earthquake. Thank God no one notice about it. i don't want to make them worry.

Finally the shooting was done. I hope what i did can help them in their assignments. Feel so glad that i can get to know them. Especially that Fat Gay hahaha... The Banana and being "racist" for the own race. Finally i found someone in the college that have the same thinking just like me. I thought i am a weirdo at first for being like that. But now.. i know that i am not.. hahahaha...

(To Be Continue when i get those photos..... hahahaha...)

Black Friday 09'

2009-11-14T19:15:00.000+08:00

Say *cheese* take 1 !

Say *cheese* take 2!!

Say *cheese* take 3 !!! phew~

25th October 2009,MPO and KTLG...

2009-10-24T22:24:00.000+08:00

Habby, Me and Evelyn
Me, Habby and Evelyn AGAIN!!!

Went to MPO for the orchestra...

Stepped right into the orchestra hall.... and i feel so happy to get into it...

It was really grand.. That's for sure and... when i lifted my head... The wonderful structure of the "ceiling" amazed me....

I wish that my future house will be like that too... *day dreaming*

It was pretty funny when i was asking Evelyn and Habby why is't most of the musician are with fat tummies... They said it's because they sit all the time even when they're playing with their instruments....LOL..

After that more and more "Ghost Guy" came out and Habby was trying to search for a handsome one. Well... she finally found one as there was really not much to choose in fact...Most of them are quite old..

The conductor... was a hilirious one. Joking all the while was what he did during the whole orchestra. Did a great job in entertaining everyone in the hall and to create laughter in everyone... *BRAVO*

The music played was really nice...

I was really paying attention to it.. But honestly.. This was kinda normal to me..

It was not what i really want... What i heard today was mostly like the Swan Lake Princess cartoon that i used to watch last time. I actually prefer something that's more romanticand in a touching type of music that can stir my emotion..

It was really nice to have you to sat beside me. Disturbing me was a good thing or else i will eventually fall asleep in the hall too. As when i paid too much of attention.. I feel a bit tired...

I paid attention to it because i want to enjoy it and it was also because i want to respect those who were playing on the stage. I know how it feels when someone appreciate and don't appreciate what you perform on the stage. I can't go and thank them for performing all of sudden as they will definately think i am insane. That's why, paying attention and smiling was the best thing that i can do...

After the orchestra.. 4 of us went out and try to snapped some photos..

There was an event promoting those big bikes and there were a few sexy and beautiful young lady posing at side of the bikes... As usual... all the guys don't want to miss the chance!

Included you!! Don't deny !! *LOL*

OH YEA!! Forget to thank some crazy people for fanning my palm... LOL...

~THANKS~

( Headed to church after that....)

Bro. Calvin made 5 of us, (Cylus, Kai Chi, Me, Amanda and Mark) to drew with our hands facing backward!! It was so hard!! And i had no idea of what i drew.. The worst drawing ever... hahahaha...

After the ice breaking.. the KOPITIAM lifegroup continue with the P&W then sharing time!!

It was always great to get to share and to listen to what others have to share in the lifegroup. It helps me to get update on what are they up to now a days.

Before the lg ended, we discussed about the youth outing that the leaders have been planning to go on this coming November. Hiking is one of the activity recommended by one of the lg member. I love to hike BUT... without LEECHES please!!! Other than that, makan-makan also might be the choice for the outing. It's great to makan together but it is more to a fellowship and not really an outing, i think....

Well... this is what happened..... whole day long.............

Still dare not enough to say "Bring it on"...

It's too powerful that i wish that i can i have a bolder heart and a wiser mind...

O'Lord.. make me a strong disciple of yours...

A wise man...

Salt of the world....

(^^,)

Humbly Come Before You..

2009-10-20T20:14:00.000+08:00

Lord.. now as i come before you.. I want to leave everything i've got to you and bow down right in front of you...

"Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and i will dwell in the house of the Lord, forever." Psalm 23:6

"Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.

Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.

Blessed are those who hunger
and thirst for righteouseness,
for they will be filled.

Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.

Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.

Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called the children of God.

Blessed are those who are
persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

"Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you."

Matthew 5:3 - 11

*Thank the Lord for all the blessing.. With a thankful heart i know that every obstacles and test you are giving me is to mould me into the one that you want.

Lord i remembered that you've once told me that you will not put me in the test that i can't do it. Every test iss to make me into a better one that i can make a great testimony one day. Something that makes me to be even mature. To grow, spiritually and mentally.
There are times when i am going through all these i will tend to forget what you've told me before. I am here to seek forgiveness from you too Lord. You know what i am going through definately and Lord i wish that you will continue to bless me with a bolder heart. Stonger heart that can make it through the pain. Lord, you are the name above the names and i wish that the Holy Spirit will be with me all the times too.
Love my neighbour as i love myself..
Love and forget the enemy and no hatred come before me.
Break the walls ...
Bring it on Lord.....

Why is everything sticked together in the New Semester???

2009-10-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

The second semester had finally begin. Well, i attented the very first lecture today. Radio and DJ lecture at DK ABC. Conducted by Mr. Justin Lopez, elder brother of Jennifer Lopez. HEHEHE..
When he brief about the subject, i don't know why but the word STRESS kept haunting me!
Practical based is what Mr. Justin said the second semester will be focusing on. Get the feeling of WORRY i can say. As i feel that i am not good in enough and there are too many good ones around me. There are times i feel that i can fit into no where. Why do i feel so? You may question me that but i can only please you by saying " I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHY ". Maybe i feel too low self esteem? That's me. Since young till now. *sigh*

OH YA!! Back to the topic! Second semester timetable is really killing me! All the time are sticking together and hardly get a break. LONG HOURS of LECTURES and TUTORIALS!!
Why is't only E1 get such a "marvelous" "wonderful" "fantastic" timetable??!!
That's a sad thing. But, there are lots of happy thing coming up next! HAHAHAHA.. i mean right now.
I wonder is't all the cupids are trying to get higher salary? XD!!
If not why is't there are so many couples after the semester break???
In my class alne there are 3 pairs!
In other class also there's at least 1 pair!
PAIR ~
PAIR~
PAIR~

Adui~ kepala pun dah putar-putar!

Before i forget i want to wish :

♥ VC and Karena

♥ Alfred and Yoon Yi

♥ Christopher and Grace

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ SEMOGA BAHAGIA ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ *wink*

Felt happy today. Because i get to look at you smiling at the phone when i texted you.
Felt extremely happy.
You don't look that fierce anymore. *hehehehe*
Wonder what are you feeling at that time and i wish to tell you that i feel very happy that i can get to see you today. Even it's not face to face but, from a far distance also i can feel the happiness... ^^

Congrats to my dearest Uncle Ocean, but.. "kesian" me..

2009-10-01T13:30:00.000+08:00

This Uncle Ocean and Aunt May.. I will upload more of his photos when i get the other photos from my uncle..

I feel so happy seeing Uncle Ocean smiling like that. This is the first time i saw that...

Me and my mum..

Look alike??

This is me..
My cousin trying to snap my photo as a revenge actually as i kept snapping his photo so he wanted to snapped mine also..

It was hectic and tiring for sure these few days helping my uncle to arrange all his marriage stuff. It's not easy !! Sleep late but needs to wake up early in the morning. But as long as my uncle feels happy i don't mind ^^..

Well now.. every uncle at my mum's side family are married. The next.. i guess is just waiting for my cousin brother or.. me to get married?? HAHAHAHA.. It's a stupid joke, i know. I will not marry until i achieve what i want in my career. Career have to come first then only i will go after marriage as i don't want my family to suffer next time. I want to be there to provide what my parent want and to be there to provide what my children needs. I don't want my husband to provide everything!

Back to the story..

That night was awesome.. i mean, the wedding dinner.. Though i didn't get to eat much as i was the "CAMERAMAN" for my uncle. But i feel happy becuase once again i can see my uncle smiling like the sun shining! Besides that i can also feel how happy my aunts and mum to see thheir youngest brother to be a REAL GROWN UP! LOL

But.. what makes me feel.. "kesian me" was that....

My uncle's friends.. came and ?"serbu" me just to snap photos with me and to get my number..

AND NOW... i am in TROUBLE!!!

Watching you from far....

2009-09-24T16:40:00.000+08:00

Moved my mouse to the link.. and clicked it..

The word surprise came into my mind as i didn't expect you to dedicate the post to me..

I will not misunderstanding and i understand what you are trying to say...but there are times.. i wish that you could tell things straight forwardly..

Do not make it to beat about the bush.. as there are times i do judge or will get it wrongly..

I don't want to hurt you.. i don't want to make you angry too...

I wish to see you smile... Wish to hear you laugh...

Wish you to be like how you used to be...

I know.. that i can't do anything anymore.. it's too late..

But there are things i really wanted to talk with you and share every single experienced that i went through to you..

But... hesitation came to me..

Will you listen? Will you care about it? Or will you just ask me to zip my mouth and hold it with both of my hands and walk away"?

Tried to get my eye away from the phone... but.. it didn't really work, i suppose..

There are times i wish that there are no hesitation passing by me.. or even you..

But that couldn't be true..

Saw you in my mind.. walking and standing far away..

I'm just right behind you.. stretching my little fingers ..

But it can't be reached.. i keep it back..

It's another hesitation.. HAIZ~

What will you do if you were me?

What will you do if you are right behind me?

Will i get a call from you..?

Or i will get no sign of you, at all?

I wanted to tell you that i really missed you too..

Truly a lots...

Wishing that i could hear you... speak to me..

Whisper to me..

Right beside me...

Not getting it wrong...

感情...

2009-09-23T08:52:00.000+08:00

我是一个普通的人，如他人。有时候，我提出错误的举动，有次我使成功的标志，会亮起。
特别是感情...

问我，我做什么的？问我，我会如何生存？问我是否知道我是哪里的？
我只能告诉你..我不知道..

在我的情绪控制每个部分，我的身心。这使我很难生存。但我猜它是礼物..这并不是说很难与它生存下来，但我如何控制它我事。很明显，我没有一个非常糟糕的工作。
只能责怪自己的愚蠢，我可以说。但我肯定有一个理由和目的，为什么上帝给我这个礼物。我有一个在这个世界的目的了。该船1上帝也。

不同的人可能会感到或看到我的个性我的不同。
有些人可能认为这...我是一个非常害羞，被动和胆小的人。一些人认为我的一种善良，有爱心，真诚和关怀的人或一个人是非常雄心勃勃的人才。有些人甚至认为这是一个非常粗鲁，独裁者我，有人说的并不友好。
但只有我自己知道我是谁真的很快乐。没有人知道自己比我当然。我乞求对地球上的，请停止来看我！ * （丢弃眼泪）
我不在乎是否要称赞我不是因为我不喜欢得到赞美，但是，当涉及到误会....它伤害了我比什么都..疼痛，这让我像一个在我的心头，直接用刀刺伤的感觉。

但我知道，无论什么，这是我自己的过错。对于大家对我的判断记笔记。这是我自己的愚蠢，我自己的过错..
事情不会是这样的，否则我不会感到连一个伤害，如果我忽略人们说，和法官。事情不会是这样的，如果我能控制自己的感受。

给我一点时间，我会凤凰一样的上升从灰烬！给我一些时间来改善。给我一些时间，是一个更好的。只要多一点，而..我不知道需要多长时间，但..斯特给我一些时间。

“唷〜”

HopefuLLy...

2009-09-15T03:27:00.000+08:00

Woke up early in the morning, thought back of what you and i had talk about..

I've never thought that sunrise is so beautiful until you.. say it out..

wish that every morning when i wake up, the first scene that i want to have is this.. the beautiful and calming sunrise right outside of my window..

Was alone.. sitting.. thinking..
when will you appear..
i actually have a hope within me since these few days..
i really wish that i could read your mind..
i really wish that i could watch what are you doing,
i really wish that you can tell me what is in your mind,
Wishes are everywhere..
you and i,
she and he,
they and us..
all are hoping.. for something.. a little thing, a lot of thing..
when will it be fulfill?
But.. will the hopes of these people bring them happiness..
or disaster?
Will my hope bring happiness or....
I wish to know about it and..
i am now waiting for the right time..

i will be waiting..
i am still waiting for you..
you know who you are..
standing right in front of the door.. ready to give you the warmest hug..
but still... i wish that you would tell me...
what's in your mind..

Well, enough for all the emo emo feelings.. i had my last paper yesterday and it was awesome!

1st. the question was hard enough

2nd. people kept booking resit paper for me (cursing me to fail!! XD!!)

3rd. the hall was terribly cold but my body was terribly hot ( it happens to me since the start of the 1st paper )

4th. the guy behind me is very noisy XD!! ( hehe.. i was laughing all the while when he make noise )

Well.. that's the end of my first semester. It happened so fast that i really feel so glad about it. But at the same time i was actually scare that the coming semester will be tougher and i don't wish that i did my exam badly. I wish that i could handle it all.

I would thank this particular person..*****

Thanks for the care about how i feel and thanks for the encourage you had given me last night.

All these while i wanted to brought the matter up to you but it seems like you are so busy hanging around so i dare not to disturb and thought of let it be.. but what you told me last night i would keep it in my mind and.. i wish to tell you that.. once the bible had said.. if there's a man that slap you on the left, you let him slap you on the right too... that's why.. i won't mind letting anyone to slap me on my right if they had slapped me on my left ^^

Holiday starts and... Its the time for me to............ DREAM about EDWARD!!!! LOL ^^

2009-09-12T10:05:00.000+08:00

Mendungnya pagi ini

Bagai memahami erti

Lambaian rambutmu

Bisakah kita

Hatiku nak bersatu

Kasih pun terbina

Namun cita membawamu oh jauh dariku

Mengapa harus cinta

Kelu ada yang berpisah oh

Tak ku mungkin mengerti

Mengapa harus kasih

Pastikan jua berakhir sayang

Tak sanggup ku menanggung pilu ini

Masih di fikiran

Getarmu mata bertemu

Di hati terasa

Oh debaran cinta

Keayuan wajahmu

Merdunya suara

Kini tinggal oh kenangan

Hingga ke akhirnya

Ikhlas ku berdoa

Pada yang Esa

Kan ku kenang

Apa erti selamanya

masing-masing sibuk mencari cinta.. hinggakan ke pelusuk dunia..

pernahkah kita fikirkan.. mengapa harus kita cinta?

apakah itu cintu sebenarnya??

Mengapa pilu rasanya bila kita cinta?

Inginku menangis bagi melafazkannya,namun..

Tidak terhenti tangisannya..

Melihat mu dekat pada si dia.. ingin ku menyuruh mu.. JANGAN.. namun..

ku tidak berdaya

siapakah aku pada mu....

ingin ku bisik di telingamu..

melafazkan... bahawa..

AKU CINTA PADAMU..

Am i ESTHER?? ORPHAN

2009-08-26T17:18:00.000+08:00

She look scary?? YEA.. but only in the movie and this poster...

The actual her is really pretty and cute.. ladies and gentlement.. may i present you.. Isabelle Fuhrman.. ( ESTHER )

They parents that adopted her...

ESTHER trying to fit into a sexy dress and getting ready to seduce the dad, with the sexy dress...red lipstick and heavy eyeliner...

Me = ESTHER????!!

They say i look like her because of my dress and my make up.. Well i am sorry this photo can't see my make up that well hehehe...

This is me.. TRUST ME I AM NOT ESTHER.....................

It's me again... hahaha

"HEY!! ESTHER!!!!"... Early in the morning i was greeted like that by my classmates. I was acutually kinda blur of why they call me like that. I mean.. i don't even know who's ESTHER!! Then slowly they tells me about the ESTHER story. It was the main actor in the movie titled 'Orphan'. They said i dress like her and i look like her this morning. Well.. i was actually looking forward to watch this movie but unfortunately no one wanted to watch it before this. But i am lucky that i dress like ESTHER. In the end i went and watch it with someone.. hehezz.

It was awesome!! As a broadcast student, i would rate this movie as VERY GOOD. The acting skill is good and the story is creative enough. But i feel annoyed by the bunch of people screaming for fear in the cinema. It was really annoying. I wanted to watch that movie in peace and i really want to study ESTHER. She's a 9 year old girl. But guess what.. a 9 year opld girl manage to do killing and.. seduces her father!! Well.. the truth is she's not 9 year old actually. She's 33!! She look like a child because of the hormonal problem in her that stunted her growing. And she had mentally disorder. If she can't make it to seduce the dad in the adopted family, she will kill the whole family in the end. YEA.. It's disgusting to see how a child wanted to seduce the father and telling him that she LOVE im very much and praising the father very handsome and good guy. PHEW..

ESTHER sometime lock herself in the room. She did that because she wanted to draw something onto the wall of the house. She drew the picture of the parents that adopted her having S**.

When the father get to know it, it was too late. As he rejected her love. She took a knife and stab him from behind. Then pushed him and kept stabbing until he can no longer feel alive!

The way she kills.. is really violence. I enjoy watching it. But not because i like violence. It is because i feel so amaze to see a little girl that can act so well.

Whenever ESTHER is angry, she will be screaming like hell and kept banging things around her. Well.. i actually did that when i was a child. So am i having mental problem just like her??!!! hahahahaha.. I am a naughty child so i did that hahaha..

Here are some of the pictures.. Let them tell the stories. I have to rest.. hahaha..

hm.. better continue with my TWILIGHT chapter 10!!

Very curious to know about Bella and Edward....

BookS!!!! ah!! MUACKS!!

2009-08-24T20:31:00.000+08:00

YEAY!!!! Today went to KLCC for the bookfair. Bought really a lots of books!! Spend too much money .. hahaha...

I bought :

Twilight Saga set
A malay novel - Bila Dah Suka
5 A4 colourful files
1 case file

This is Twilight Saga!! I carry these books all along from the convention centre back home!! Stuck at the Jln Ampang almost 2 hours. I can hardly feel my back and my leg at that moment... OH Ya.. my hand too... I guess my muscle will come and say HELLO to me soon... hahaha..

I really can't wait to read these.. I have heard people talking about these books so i wanted to know what is so nice about it.

Have no idea what it is but i cant wait to read it!!

Lastly.. This Malay novel!!
Don't be surprise to know that i read mlay novel. I enjoy reading malay novels because i really love BAHASA MALAYSIA!! hahaha

Maklumlah saya nie kan konon-kononnya anak perempuan melayu wakakakakakaa...

WAA~ Really tired after walking the whole day at there. Oh ya.. before i enter the convention centre there were some officer from hospital standing at the side there using a gun lik laser to point at our forehead to check our body temperature! I was scare because i had just recovered from high fever. The officer knew that i was afraid then he laugh and say OKIE!! hahahaha...

WA~~ really feel so happy that i bought so much of books!!! hahaha..

But heart feel slightly painful because i spend so much.......

2009-08-20T15:53:00.000+08:00

Headed to canteen 2 with Miczz to have our lunh. We passed by a table and saw a girl enjoying her bowl of ASAM LAKSA!!! My favourite!! Then i was so excited asked Miczz whether she want to have a bowl also. Well. i was actually expecting her to say no because she care too uch about her face hahahaha.. But what surprise me was that her YES answer hahaha.. then.. i get her to ask the girl where to get it. Then we ran to the particular counter hahahhaa..
THEN.............

Finally!!!! We managed to finished the super spicy and hot ASAM LAKSA!! NO MORE @ND TIME!!! hahahahahahaha... pay money just to suffer ..haha..

Snapped a few photos while waiting for the class.. Well.. nerdy.. with the book and the file in my hand, haha.. It was not near enough to see me so i get Miczz to help me to snapped another photo again...
TADAAA!!! My curls are in black that's why it is not that obvious in the picture.. come and see me personally if you want to see my curls.. hehehehe..

This is what i am waiting for... posing without looking at the camera.. hahahaha..

Well... this is how my curls looks like after a few hours..

It's not that nice yet because the creamy o springy effect was not there anymore after i kept touching it.. hehehe.. itchy hands!!

ThE LasT swimming!!

2009-08-19T19:18:00.000+08:00

YEAY!! This is me and 1 of my swimming friend. We are the 1st to finished our shower after the swim. Well we are trying to snap photos while waiting for the rest of the MISSs inside the toilet to come out.... really waited for them soooo long!! GIRLS!!!
Alright! finally they are out of the toilet and now snapped the first photo and trying to adjust the position of the camera for a few times!! At last came to idea of squatting down.. I have to ran there to fit myself in hehehehehezzz...

We went out from the toilet and snapped a photo with the swimming pool. These are the beauties beside the pool!! hahahaha...

Then head back to the toilet there and take the final picture.. after that i rushed to class!!! I was late for the tutorial!!

Alright, that's all for now. Shall update it tomorrow again!!!

*chiao*

from college to KLCC from KLCC to college from COLLEGE TO KLCC AGAIN!!!

2009-08-18T20:33:00.000+08:00

Phew!! hectic day!! After lecture went to KLCC with Miczz. All because i want to buy hair 'mouse' .. something like hair spray. Then bought hand band, super big comb and the 2 limited edition spritzer mineral water!! The white doll is mine and the pinkist belongs to Miczz. Well after that we hang around there for and while and i spend almost an hour just to teach Miss Datin Miczz how to take public transport to go back. well.. a waste of energy and breath i could say. At last came to the point.. GO BACK TO COLLEGE!!! just because she is not daring enough to take LRT alone.. HAIZ~~
Rushed back to college for IT Practical. I feel frustrated and grabbing my hair to release a bit of the frust hahahaha..

Then snapped some photos in the IT Lab.. Wearing mask for the entire day is really not easy...

I can HARDLY BREATHE!!!!! HM~ It is very bad to know that the H1N1 dead is increasing daily. Wherever you go, you'll see people wearing mask and honestly it's really freaky i could say. Just imagine what if one day, our country became like Resident Evil???!!!

OMG!!!

Will you kill yourselves or you're willing to let the zombies to eat u and at last you join their family??? Which will you choose??

whoLe dAy jOuRnEy...

2009-08-17T15:09:00.000+08:00

8am

Woke up and get myself prepare to go college for my final swimming class. It was the final exam for the swimming class too. Mr. Alan asked what is the reason that makes me absent on the Saturday co-curiculum day. I told him that i will explain to him later personally. Then when the class dismissed, i went to him and tell him the whole story about what had happen. He said that he was shocked that this kind of thing happen in the ***. Well, that's why i feel so sad during the Saturday....

9am

English class again~ as usual.. my class was alw having their adrenaline running very high. Everyone was so excited to see each other and got the talk going on non stop.. i mean some of them la hahahaha.. That bad Christopher!! Didn't even realise about my hair.. i curled it.. he didn't bother to look at it but to look at his wife only, Grace!! Don't want to choi u already .. !!

I asked Ms.Yahmini whether i can leave early.. because i actually wanted to go KLCC. Things didin't go as what i've planned. I didn't go because i was alone and it was kinda boring to go alone with the MASK on my face!! Imagine a person wearing a mask walking around KLCC!! It's so weird man!!

12:15pm

Went in the Putra line. One of the guy saw me wearing mask he run away! What??!! Iwas like... hello sir.. do you think that you are doing the right thing? Well.. forget about that. I saw there are lots of people wearing mask around me and when ever you are wearing a mask, they'll give you the weird look. What la!!

THEN!!! I saw....... HIM!!! the clown guy during TT9!! I was actually searching for him because it has been quite some time i didn't get to see him. Usually i will get to see him every friday nearby DK Y before the IT lecture, but nowadays it is hard to see him. But i was not daring enough to call him because:

1st. i don't know his name, but to know him as TT9 clown only

2nd. it will be very weird if all of sudden i went and call him for nothing

3rd. he was with his friend, it's not good to go and interrupt

4th. i just want to check whether he still remembers me

Well.. it was acoincidence that when i turned my head to his side he turned too. He saw me and guess what??!! He can recognized me eventhough i am wearing a mask! TERROR!! He ask why am i wearing a mask. I told him that it's too many people so it's dangerous so i wear a mask. I used eye contact and my hand to tell him that heheee.. Because we're not that near to each other so it's hard to talk. Then i looked back in front. I saw him staring at me.. Then i asked him why? He take quite some time then only answer me. Then i just smile to him. HM~ is't because the way i dress look weird?? Or.. i am too ugly??

But anyway, i was really happy to meet him back. Unfortunately didn't get the chance to say bye...

130pm

Reached back home. Got my favourite soup, ABC!! WooHoo!!

After lunch, need to study again!!

Hm.. i want to buy hair mouse..

When can i buy it??

Wish to take good care of my hair...

hahahahahaha~~

Well.. overall..i can say that today is a HAPPY DAY!!!

Guess why?? hehe...

6 PaCks aNd muScLes ??

2009-08-05T16:50:00.000+08:00

Went to the gym at the clubhouse today. Well.. everything is nice i could say. Really enjoy the feeling of the sweat coming out from my body. Trust me, it feels good!! I started with the running machine. It was my first time to run on that thing officially for about twenty minutes. Thanks to Jesselpon for helping me on how to operate the machines and to teach me the ways to do sit up (hahahaha). The twenty minutes of running is not easy for someone who is not used with exercising heheee.. But i manage to do it so i should actually congrats myself!! After that i proceed with pulling thing.. Erm.. don't know what it calls. It's something to build muscle. I tried to pull it.. Well.. i don't want to build amy muscle for my arm so i stop doing it .. hehehee.. Then i continue with the ladies choice, SIT UP!! PhEW!! Jesselpon challege me to finish 10 sit ups!! WA!! tough tough!! But don't underestimate me. I manage to do more than that! Jesselpon cheated me. He said he'll treat me a drink if i manage to get 10, but at last?? I buy a drink for myself..

Hm.. feel so good after sweating!! Feel like going for a gym but.. Miczz don't want.. hm... gym again? I don't mind but i really feel like swimming............

Hm.... can't wait to see the result of after gym.. i mean.. nice body shape and good health. DEFINATELY NOT 6 PACKS AND MUSCLE!! heheheeee

New Life with My Contact Lens!!

2009-08-02T21:56:00.000+08:00

Syok sendiri a bit... hehe.. too boring ..

Notice that?? The grey pupil!! hehe..

Snapping photos with Miczz and Yau Yau in DK ABC while waiting the lecturer ..

Life.. is wonderful.. full of challenges and adventures.. You'll never know what is the next adventure and you'll never know how will it be..
Because it is always like a box of chocolates..

Feeling low self esteem is always me.. now.. trying to improve at least a little by this pair of new eyes.. but.. it makes my vision goes blur!! Urgh... hoping to get used with it.. or should i say..
want some changes.. gotta make some scarifice!! haha..
^^

Distance Yourself from ME, H1N1!!

2009-07-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

I had fever yesterday and a bit of cough.. My mum was worry that i got infected so she asked me not to go college and fetched me to clinic. Well thank God i am alright now although i still cough a little. The doctor wanted to give me medicines to eat but i requested for injection. The doctor knew the reason because he knew that i am scare of medicine and pain. But of course not the injection pain. It's the wound washing pain! I can still remember how pain it was when i need to wash my wound after my accident a about two months ago.
My classmates most of them are sick and my boyfriend university need to close for one week due to the H1n1 spread! I really wish that the Lord will cast away the disease!
Distance it from not only me but to everyone!!!
I am not ready yet Lord...
=(

MeeT baCk WitH tHe Sot sOt Dei.. ^^

2009-07-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

Me and Ellen a.k.a Prawn

My drink ( Cappucino blended ) Mamo's drink ( Green tea )

Went over to a cafe and have some drink with Dai Bao, Mamo, Prawn and also Zhima!! Wel.. i actually miss them a lots as i really miss those moments where i used to go and come back from tuition with them during high school. Snap a few photos during the so call Yam Cha.. hehe..

heAd tO gRace's hOuSe aLL of suDDen ??!!

2009-07-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

A picture of everyone is enjoying the ice cream without the ICE!!

Deciding on what to buy.. walk here and there for about an hour but at last... only fill the basket with MAGGIES!!!!! what la~

Posing with.. erm.. some.. oil and biscuits.. hahaha.. hey.. this time we're paid for it .. hahaha.. juz kidding..

Hey!! here~ this is the ice cream without the ICE!!

A picture of everyone enjoying the.. so call LOR MIN.. delicious??? erm~ boleh tahan lar.. VC cook ma.. so.. it's like that de lar~wakakakaka

*yawn* after eat.. the next task is to ... SLEEP!!! Bad Miczz.. make my eye look like cat!!

erm.. it's obscene.. i know.. my fault.. haha..

Mr. Jarrod.. trying to pose with the erm~ Green Bean can.. erm~ i am starting to worry that the bean company will sue you man.. !! Get out of there!!hahahaha..

Well.. suppose to be on top but.. lazy to upload again.. hehe.. took this photo at the Alpha Angle Jusco.. can you guys see whether how many of us are there?? hehe..

It was a really nice day although it has been raining all day long.. Well i really want to thank God that none of us get any stomach problem aftr consuming those foods cook by Mr. VC and Mr. Christopher de keh leh feh.. hahahahaha

It's the time ....

2009-07-19T12:48:00.000+08:00

Went back to church today. It has been really long that i didn't attend both lifegroup and morning service. Feel weird when i am there today. But luckily there's Tuck Seng and Felix to accompany and sit beside me. Sometimes it's kind of weird when i saw someone that i know but they make no effort to come over and talk to me or even to give me a smile. Well.. maybe they are just too busy, i guess. Today's sermon is about WATER BAPTISM. Why we need to get baptised? It's because when we baptised we are united with the Lord and we are being a part of him and not a part of the dark kingdom. To get baptised is to get a brand new life, to leave the old away. Hm.. when only i can get baptise?? When i was listening to sermon, Felix came over and talk to me. He came and asked.. have i thought of coming back to serve in the ministry?

Well.. i did have that in my mind before this and i was actually waiting for the Lord to call me. I guess the Lord had send Felix to come over to pass the message. My heart is still there for the Children Church. That's where i belong to. My love and passion for the children is still there. So.. i went and looked for Sis. York Ling to talk about it. But unfortunately, she's not there. So went and take a look at the CC service. Things changed a lot actually. Lesser helpers, lesser teachers and.. lesser children i can say. Most of the helper there are the kids that join CC before this. Feel a little bit of proud to see them grow so fast. Josiah, the child that i used to take care of when he's about 3-4years old is now a big boy.. (haha) When he saw me today.. he stunt! And a few kids calling me as i walk into the sanctuary... Sis. Fiona... That was how the children in CC used to call me. I miss the children there and i wish to bring them up to be God's disciple. I wish to see them grow in the Lord. Miracle... it's a wonderful feeling ...

God.. your call i shall answer and Lord.. i believe that as i walk.. you are always there... for me..

2009-07-18T15:45:00.000+08:00

I wish that everything can be better after calming myself. But i guess.. i give myself too high hopes. Going to college makes me learn a lot. Really a lot that i can say that i almost cant take it. Wish to give up and run away from it. But too bad.. i can't! I have to face it no matter how hard it is. When you tripped and fall.. struggle and ask for a hand.. people around you.. will either look at you and walk away.. or not to even bother to look at you.. or might lend you a hand to assist you to stand up. But.. too bad again.. the chance for the people around to not to bother to look at you is the highest and this is for REAL! All i could do is.. to hide myself at the darkest corner, squeeze myself like a little mouse and cry ( sniff ...) To be honest.. the world is really cruel and i wish that the Lord will appear in front of me.. right now .. so that i can get a hug from him.. Lord.. althought life on this earth is temporary.. but all these challenges are making me feel so tired. What are you trying to mould me into?? ( staring.. at the corner of the screen .. ) Life... ( sigh.. )

Granted a sensitive feeling and heart to feel others but.. others can't even feel a single feeling of mine? It's not fair. I think i should stop caring about others.. should i?

Happiness and sadness comes and go for everyone..

For me..

Happiness is just passing by..

While sadness is the one that stays..

I don't know what else i can do.. But someone told me not to care about it and just go according to the flow.. One day they'll know..

Hm..

OK OK.. ( stop being so down~ UP UP UP!! )

Starting from the next monday, brand new me will appear.. (hope so..)

Learn to protect myself.. not physically but mentally.

Lord.. with your grace and mercy.. help me to go through this obstacle..

Faith needed for this long journey and .. to be your disciple..

The One and Only..

2009-07-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

Feel a bit lonely today.. (sigh)

Shan Shan is getting along with her classmates very well.. While me?? I don't know why that i started to feel.. a bit lost and.. a bit lonely.. some are busy with the one they admire.. some are busy with their tama world.. some are ment to clump together like UHU glue.. some are somewhere at the corner.. (long sigh~)

I can still remember it vividly.. last time.. we used to clump together like UHU glue too.. but now...??

No more.. no longer.. (hm~) ..

Maybe our UHU glue is the pirated one that made from C***A...

I admit it that i am being too emotional and.. sensitive but.. i really don't know hoe to control it. Bad me huh?

I miss you guys Taran.. Amy... Jess.. Naza.. Piyan.. Sa'a... Amir... Aus.. Jen Hoong.. K.Ming.. Hana.. Gek Yu.. Choo... Itik... 5 Sc 1 and all the Tasikians..

Is it because i am not getting used with the new environment?

HM~ i don't think so...

Where can i get the answer??

No one can ever understand how hard it feels..

I don want to hate..

I want to love..

I want to care..

Tring to move forward..

Must i sacrifice myself for others to be happy?

AGAIN..??

Why is't always have to be me??

( ~ S I G H ~ )

2009-07-11T13:06:00.000+08:00

Need to attend lecture and tutorial + assignmentss + presentationss + homework + examss = BELOW ( as what you can see )

trying to snap a picture at the middle of the road.. wanna sneak into the hostel area with the ID card.. just wanna have a look on how Anitha's room.. erm.. kinda.. EMPTY.. haha..

wOw.. Jesse trying to put a shoe on.. erm.. 1 of our classmates leg?!! trying to be prince charming ya??
Don't worry.. we won't blame you.. we know you are having too much of stress..

Oh My!! Chris.. i.. knew it.. i knew it that you are a

G *Y

finally.. i've got the prove!!!

SExy La lu...

Phew WiTT!!

2009-07-08T19:25:00.000+08:00

Everyone is crazy for the Tamagotchi!!!! Went to MidValley just to get the thing.. crazy duh..

Nice pose.. pls don't misunderstand ok?? I'm trying to do a special stunt only ok??

Ala.. Chris.. perasan la.. i know you want to be the next miss peagent..

OH NO!!! Chris and Jarrod!!! What are you guys trying to do??!!! Don't be too open la!! It's Vc car la!!! So desperate meh.....

Ku tidak tahu...

2009-07-02T15:32:00.001+08:00

Ku disini.. mengharapkan keajaiban untuk muncul dalam hidupku. Namun masih tidak dapat ku kecapinya. Ku hadir sebagai seorang insan yang tidak pernah dihargai. Mengapa?? Tidak dapat ku jawab..

Ku lihat gelak ketawa remaja yang begitu ceria dan bertenaga. Dikerumuni keriangan dan kebahagiaan bersama kawan.. Mereka masing-masing inginkan diri menjadi seseorang yang terkemuka.

Ku tidak mahu mengejar kekayaan..

Tidak ku mahu mengejar menjadi bintang pujaan ramai..

Hanya inginkan kegembiraan..

Keamanan..

Seringkali ku pujuk diriku untuk menjadi insan yang tabah..

TAPI..

Mengapa ku masih tidak dapat melakukannya??!!

Mengapa ku dilayan sebegitu?

Apakah kelebihan yang pernah wujud dalam diriku??

Ku tidak tahu....

saY gOodbye to FAirY TaLe

2009-07-01T16:30:00.000+08:00

Well how stupid i am.. that is what i am going to say about myself..

Trying to get myself out of the fairy tale world.. Phew!! Thank God that i manage to make it.. Well... i am not sure will i fall into the same " hole" again.. wakakakakakakaka.. (opps.. i am so sorry, i know that i am not suppose to laugh like that)

Shan Shan!! I feel like killing you!! Don't treat me like that.. I am trying to make myself get out of the fairy tale world.. You want me to fall into it again huh??!! (hehe)

Oh no!! Don't want!!

sniff.. sniff..

HUGA HUGA!! Fiona CHEER UP!!

Great days are coming for you.. wukakakaka...

This picture.. explains how i am feeling .. for now...

wish to stop thinking bout ...

2009-06-30T23:08:00.000+08:00

wish to tell myself to stop thinking 'bout ...

stay focus...

i caught... staring at me for some moment..

i admit it that i stare too for some moment..

but..

tried to get it out..

don't want to make myself to be the stupid one...

Oh my..

what is this..

Don't want to be like this..

i really mean it..

leave me alone..

P L e a S e..

Micheal.. I'm Sorry..

2009-06-28T09:03:00.000+08:00

We can no longer hear Micheal Jackson live concert..anymore ...

UPSET...

Read 'bout his news yesterday..

Gotta say that he is a nice person..

Feel so sorry towards him that i misjudge him..

Micheal... I'm SORRY..

Till now.. i feel like i can't believe it that you've left..

To somewhere.. far.. that we can't reach you..

Micheal.. don't worry..

Your dream of being the best superstar that everyone will remember you..

Already achieved long time ago..

You're always the OnE and there'll be no other YOU..

$%#^$ Don't do this in the Lecture Hall PLS!! #$##%^

2009-06-27T13:52:00.000+08:00

Mr. Jarrod de Carrot always sleep during lecture..

Mr. Christopher ala Babi will never listen to lecture..

Ms. Shan de Tiga 3 prefer to listen2 songs..

Mr. Vc la Spagethi Bei c has gone to dreamland...

Great pose Mr. Carrot.. ops.. Jarrod.. i mean..

I am the only one in the row sitting there and listening to lecture.. Guys.. take me as an example lar.. WAKAKAKa..

2009-06-21T09:01:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is Monday. Deep down in my heart i really don't want "Miss Monday" to reach. I hope that the time will stop at this moment. I've got too much of stress! I cried half an hour yesterday. My eye was swollen! I am so afraid that I'll get mental problem.. Feel like shouting everything out because i really feel the suffer in me so so so so MUCH!!!

Friends in college won't realise how suffering i am and how upset i am..

EMO girl?? Yes.. that's so true.. i am very emotional and i can cry whenever you want me to.

God.. pls help me.. i really don want to continue like this..

(T_T)

2009-06-17T20:58:00.000+08:00

... draW me further apart from thiS..

2009-06-17T20:01:00.000+08:00

I am n ot sure whether i di the right thing..

All these while.. training .. leave no happiness for me..

Why ?? T____T

Am doing the right thing??

Wish That miracle will happen..

Hope to bE like dE roSe but i noE it's IMPOSSIBLE

2009-06-15T22:06:00.000+08:00

.... I always keep this in my heart and i didn't share this with anyone.. i guess no one understand how i actually feels.. I've got lots of girlfriends that really look GREAT!! While.. me... i am just too ugly to go near them and.. i feel really upset about it.. Have not been happy about how i look.. (T__T) Tears role down from my eyes everytime i think about this matter.. How great we look are what the societies want nowadays.. Believe me this is so true!! Even when you go out and work they'll be judging us based on our appearance.. haiz.. UPSET... Even when we're at college.. if you got that LOOK.. you'll be treated better by people.. I always noticed that and i will walk a bit further from that situation just to calm myself and to resist from being upset...

Why.. am i d UGLY one???

(T__T)

2009-06-12T18:31:00.000+08:00

Not a good day huh?? My classmate lost his hand phone today.. Feel so upset when i saw him searching everywhere for his hand phone. All these while he was a happy go lucky guy that always smile and laugh like a kid. But things changed today. The smile on his face today was not like before. Feel the pain in my heart when i saw him came back to the class with eyes that look as if he cried before. Really hope that person who stole his hand phone would get the right punishment for committing in such a sin! I hope that he'll be alright by now... Hm.. parents went to Cameron and i am alone at home. I didn't went for TT9 training today. I bet my boyfriend will surely feels happy because i got the chance to rest at home.. I feel so sorry to my boyfriend that i haven't been talking much with him ever since I've start my college. Ive been so busy and i really missed him so so so so much!!! Being with him all these 3++ years was really wonderful. He really cared about me a lots and he kept improving himself for me. I can still remember last time he used to be a boyfriend that don't really care what i feel and i am really happy to have him being with me...
Being faithful.. that's him.. I don't mind how he looks like.. i don't mind what he wears.. i don't mind he is boring.. i just mind if he's not with me..
To love someone.. is not to mind how he looks or how cool he is.. I wish to let him know that no other guy can ever replace him in my heart.. (^^)
All these while he has not been leaving me alone but to always stay by my side all the time. He really had did so much of thing for me. He don't mind if i scold him. Even if i did scold him, he'll be hugging me and calling me 'lou po'. (sniff)..
Well.. life is really full of surprise.. isn't ?? haha...
I went back home with Shianne today and the bus driver was really crazy enough that he kept chocking everyone in the bus and guess what.. he almost bang into other people's car today!!
hahaha.. Shianne kept saying " sei forr lo.. what he want ???" hehe..
Time passed so fast.. this is the 3rd week in the college and i feel so scare that i can't do well in my mid term that'll be coming soon.. T.T
Lord.. bless me with Your wisdom and guide me as I'm on walking through the path I'm going through now.. Amen!! hehehe..

2009-06-10T19:15:00.000+08:00

E1... Well, that's my current class and it's really such a noisy one, haha.. Whenever the lecturer are giving lecture, to make noise is really so call

"compulsory" for my classmates. Espeacially Jarrod, Anthony, Christopher, Ben and .. erm.. i guess i'm not included.. i guess so.. haha.. Before this i thought that my classmates all were like very quiet type. but what i found out now is that my class is really noisy and everyone is really talkative. Some are really true speaker box.. hahaha sorry to say that. Well, let me see.. who's the closest one to me??

Christoper, Jarrod, and VC. Other than that is like Michelle, Anitha, Ben, Anthony, Rachel, Yoon Yi, Carena, Grace and... who else?? hehehe can't really remember hehe.. I feel happy spending time with my groupmates ( Christopher, Jarrod a.k.a Xiao Yuen Yuen, and Vc). They are really mad! Make me laugh all the time! haha..

Most of the time that Jarrod just loves to make fun of me and he talk a lot of stupid jokes! Sometimes i feel like killing him!(hahaha) While that Christoper, hm.. i still remember the first time i saw him i feel tha the's kinda cool and don't talk much. EK!! Not true!! He's really funny, especially when he lift his eyebrow up and down haha! I can actually say that he's just like a 4year old kid!! ^^

That Vc ah.. He actually look and act like David, a friend of mine at the national service camp.

Kinda stupid atupid one. ( SHHH!! don't tell him...)

Ha~ what a life.. it's all about meeting people and going through trials and tribulation haha..

Oh ya i went out with Shan Shan today. I saw her spend a lots!! Gotta control her next time if not she'll not stop spending! haha..

(sniff..sniff..) tomorro i will still have to come back late because of the TT9 training. Haiz.. dear seniors.. don't you guys think that it's too much to practice untill that late???

Oh God!!! Pls... speak to them and make a way to let them know that there's no point training untill so late.. or else i'll be turning into a ZOMBIE soon~~~

HuUuuUU~

PrincEss of GoD.. gambaTeh!!

2009-06-08T22:05:00.000+08:00

Life in college has never been easy to me.. Hm..before entering college me and my friends used to think that college was really fun and it's like a total of excitement. Well, so far.. i found out that life at college was really hectic and that was really super true! I must confess that the stress level of mine are increasing day by day. Tons of assignments that i need to hand in at the same time ++ with lots of presentations!! Mad me coming soon i guess.. @_@""
(SIGH) But i know myself very well. I won't give up working hard on it no matter how tough the life or even the assignments going to be. I am still aiming for success in my life and i won;t give up till i get what i really want. Again i say.. SUCCESS!! I understand that there are no shortcuts to achieve what you want and to sacrifice something is one of the must to success. T__T
Oh God.. i pray that You will continue to give me strength to overcome difficulties in my life. May angels come and protect me and grace will shine upon me. Lord, i know that you will not stop testing me. I understand that you wish to make me a stronger one and to be the one and only one. Throughout the years.. I've going through challenges and difficulties, i didn't forget the truth . That is you are trying to make me grow more and to make miracles to shine for you.
Thank you Lord for who i am and i want to thank you for all the love you have for me...
I know i am the PRINCESS of GOD ^^

sHe acCompaNy mE thRouGhoUt tHe dAys iN coLLege

2009-06-06T09:13:00.000+08:00

Wonder who is she??hm.. she really helps me a lot when i was in college these few days. Just because of my injured leg, she accompanied me where ever i go and help me to take what ever i have..I really want to thank her for doing so so much of things to me and she's really a kind person. That's no doubt for sure. I can still remember during high school i didn't really talk much to her because she was in the other class and she seems kinda quiet one.. haha.. but now we are so much closer compare to before this. Hm.. i start to feel that it's really good because i can really find such a good friend in college so fast. Although we are in the same course but we are not in the same class. Both of us are doing broadcasting but she's in the E2 class wile I'm in E1. Sometimes i feel so sorry because she has to wait for me to finish my class only can go back. That's why i can say that i don't mind waiting for her and fetching her once my leg recover. Well, that little angel is Shianne, Huey Shan. Nice name, huh.. hehe.. She's very pretty too. Really! I am not lying.. if anyone of you don trust me.. then you should take a look at her pictures.. She got a lots of her own pictures. She loves to snap her own photos.. hahaha..

After my NS Camp..

2009-04-15T20:45:00.000+08:00

These..are my roommates...ALPHA 7..Each of them are truly speacial and spending 2++months with them has been really MEANINGFUL!!

oF my LiFe...

Changed my blog to..

Deactived soon

Happy Birthday (someone)

What should i do...

FULL-STOP on it

Kelabu Menjadi Penglihatan Kini

smile

Past Tense

Hope of Glory Centre 16th Anniversary

Hand in Hand

=(

SON vs daugther

The Crown of Beauty

The Weird Way of Sleeping

ABC and 123

Dot..............

Wonderful day i have....

Black Friday 09'

25th October 2009,MPO and KTLG...

Humbly Come Before You..

Why is everything sticked together in the New Semester???

Congrats to my dearest Uncle Ocean, but.. "kesian" me..

Watching you from far....

感情...

HopefuLLy...

Am i ESTHER?? *ORPHAN*

BookS!!!! ah!! MUACKS!!

ThE LasT swimming!!

from college to KLCC from KLCC to college from COLLEGE TO KLCC AGAIN!!!

whoLe dAy jOuRnEy...

6 PaCks aNd muScLes ??

New Life with My Contact Lens!!

Distance Yourself from ME, H1N1!!

MeeT baCk WitH tHe Sot sOt Dei.. ^^

heAd tO gRace's hOuSe aLL of suDDen ??!!

It's the time ....

Ku tidak tahu...

saY gOodbye to FAirY TaLe

wish to stop thinking bout ...

Micheal.. I'm Sorry..

$%#^$ Don't do this in the Lecture Hall PLS!! #$##%^

... draW me further apart from thiS..

Hope to bE like dE roSe but i noE it's IMPOSSIBLE

PrincEss of GoD.. gambaTeh!!

sHe acCompaNy mE thRouGhoUt tHe dAys iN coLLege

After my NS Camp..

Am i ESTHER?? ORPHAN